Road of what ifs

Road of what ifs
What if I had said no what if I hadn’t been made to do what I did, you can say no body can make you do anything but when you are scared and not given any other choice you will do anything
What if I hadn’t, what if I had said no that strong decisive no that says you mean it
I have traveled down that road of what ifs many times, always going over that time, always going back to a two letter word NO
I never said yes I didn’t say that two letter word either, my world was chaos I was lost the signs all turned around and pointing in the wrong directions those that I saw where faded and hard to decipher I was pulled and tugged onto a road that I did not want to travel on, a pull of many that I could not break free of all because of one single two letter word
The road of what ifs would have been rocky I know it, I have traveled it in my mind many times the destination different to the one I am at now
My road of what ifs is my own personal road, a secret mist shrouded road only known to me